Dying is a permission. Even might be dying but damned well hope not. Yes, I’ve been taking care of the necessaries. Just exchanged some texts with a dear friend who is an attorney and who is drafting a document that shall specify where I’d like my body to go. Her last text asked about who is to receive my cremains. It is all that casual.
That’s the heavy stuff. On a lighter note I am buying the better bottle of wine. Lying out in the sun, because Vitamin D is good for you and fuck wrinkles–not my problem. Time to–as someone once said–get the good china out.
Death is about letting go. And I am–on so many levels. I’ve started going through my closet, and anything I don’t love is being donated. How freeing is that? And how ironic that the expectation of many years ahead wasn’t all the permission I needed.
That’s life, I suppose. Learning is coming at an accelerated pace these days. Sometimes I feel this is a bit of a joke–the cosmic irony that I should figure so much out now, at the end. Other days I think well what if I do go on living, with my affairs in order and my literal load lightened.
How very liberating.
How very.
xo
life and breath: outliving lung cancer 
Linnea be here until your not xxx
I lost my mom on dec 25,. 2001. I went into a tailspin. Eventually I found your site. I was intrigued because my mom went from diagnosis to death in 6 months. You fought. I’m sorry you are looking at the end… but you fought long and hard. Bravo.
Well said and best wishes.
Love you
fyi, be careful about the legal terminology. There is a difference between leaving specific organs to specific research/researchers and not specifying what happens to the rest (which some funeral homes or crematoriums make profits from). Your lawyer should be able to keep it the way you want.
FWIW, I’m creeping in the same direction myself though trying to fight it back a little bit longer as best I can (just to try a hopeful new trial in a few months if I’m eligible then).
Best hopes,
Craig in PA
Hi Linnea. I haven’t done that yet. I’d better get on it. I’m thinking of you. Sending love. ❤️
You say it so well. We are all just borrowing-time and things. Hope all appreciate . Peace to you. Xoxo Patti Helfand with love
Linnea thank you for trailblazing the way for Alkies around the world. You don’t F around you leave your emotions for others in your blog. You have provide so much insight for others in the future. Thank you for your leadership. Peace to you. Marc Rosenzweig