I am here.

At times, it’s been more than a little touch and go.

Although I couldn’t possibly relay the whole sordid tale, I shall attempt to hit some high and low spots.

TPX0131 and I had a brief and tempestuous relationship. Six days in I would have said no side effects.

And then the shit hit the fan big time. Initially I was admitted to the ER for a lingering pneumonia (fevers–serious ones–of unknown origin.) They did what they could for me (IV antibiotics) and then I was released briefly (and if any of my handlers/editors notice any errors–please let me know. I am not entirely sure this visit was post trial onset).

I also know that I was next admitted with mental confusion. And at this point it all goes dark. Later I would realize that I was often hallucinating. All in all a month + in the hospital (lots to relay regarding that) and then two weeks in rehab.

It was hell; all of it. The current conclusion is that I suffered a severe neural injury. Tripping x 1000 (my assessment). And it took more than a month to start coming down.

The entire experience was terrifying. I am back home now trying to relearn simple things, such as typing and walking. My group of friends and family have been amazingly supportive.

I have also been very appreciate of messages, flowers, and food sent my way.

Now I must rest but I shall try to check in more frequently.

xoxo

33 responses to “I am here.

  1. So happy to hear from you – sending healing vibes

  2. So glad to hear from you! I was worried. Thinking of you!

  3. Thank God you’re here and relatively well. I dreaded checking here each day but now I can sleepwell tonight.

  4. I hope things go much better for you in the coming weeks. Fingers crossed.

  5. And we are so greatfull you are still here. You had a rough month now enjoy the Fall.

  6. thank you for the updated. have been worried and concerned

  7. I continue to think about you, keeping you in my prayers, sending out positive vibes. So grateful for your posts. So grateful for YOU! ❤️🤍❤️

  8. Thanks so much for the update, I love the tag line “I AM HERE” ` and we
    are all so glad!

  9. Glad to hear from you!
    Keep my fingers crossed for you.

  10. So glad you are still here. Less glad that you went through all this. Continuing to keep you in my prayers. Many hugs from Sweden

  11. Thank you for your update. So sorry you have had such a difficult experience. I can only imagine. The word terrifying conveys the sense of a deeply traumatic circumstance. I suppose there must be times when you think ‘what next?’ Or maybe not, and with all that has gone before you just put one step in front of the other and see where it leads you. That is not for one second to suggest a passive approach. Far from it, you are clearly a fighter and your strength shines through. I’m not sure if you realise it but that is a huge gift you give to all of us and I for one am very grateful. I hope the recovery goes well and am sending my best thoughts and wishes to you xxx

  12. What a nice surprise in my email this morning. So good to hear from you❤️💚🧡🦋🐶🧚‍♀️👏🏼

  13. A sigh from relief from Texas! It was so good to see your post. Your ordeal sounds awful though. Best wishes for healing and making sense of things in the best way you can.

  14. charlotte bodding

    I send healing thoughts to you. I am unsubscribing as Jim passed away and I am struggling without hearing more about cancer. Please knowthat my thoughts are with you and your strength is amazing. Charlott Bodding

  15. I don’t pray often; but I’ve been praying lots!; for weeks. I was so worried about you. Your brief description of what happened, sounds terrifying. I am hoping, and still praying; that you are over this hump at least and some well earned calm, joy, and wellness are in your near future.
    🥲🙏❤️❤️❤️

  16. Sending huge love your way, Linnea. And worlds of respect and admiration as always.

  17. Sending huge love your way, Linnea. And endless respect and admiration – always.

  18. Ah, Linnea, you’ve been so much on my mind. Sending you much love and my best healing vibes. ❤

  19. Thank you so much for taking the time to share your update. You have a large group of people rooting for you, as you know, and it’s wonderful to hear from you, Linnea!

  20. Sending so much love and so many gentle hugs your way Linnea. I pray that the coming days and weeks are better.

  21. So grateful I found your blog. Recently diagnosed in August with stage 4 metastatic NSCLC. You have given me hope. I think of you daily & am glad to hear you are healing from the neural injury. Thinking of you from Michigan.

  22. It’s wonderful to see your blog and hear that you’re resting and getting stronger! Sending you positive, healing thoughts.

  23. thank you for your gift of living, Linnea! I’m delighted I didn’t miss my chance to tell you this earlier. om ami deva hri, fantastic mindboggling you.

  24. I am from uk , so I donot know any other sites Facebook acc etc ,the last two comments have me concerned re linnea and her well being , can anyone enlighten me
    Thankyou x

  25. Linnea, we never met, but your fearless, honest voice will be truly missed.

  26. Linnea passed away Nov 14. I get emails from another Blog, Lisa Goldman Every Breath I Take and she wrote a blog about Linnea.

    • Thankyou you so much for letting me know , it is so gut wrenchingly sad , for someone who gave so much , her love for life was palpable , she marched on , when many would have said “enough already “ she blazed a trail for those following behind , you were amazing linnea Olson truly amazing , condolence to her friends and family xxxxxx

  27. Hello thankyou for letting me know re linnea , I feel such gut wrenching sadness , her zest and love of life was palpable , she was so giving of herself as an advocate for the lung cancer trials,
    Treatments ,side effects , to name just a few .
    For 16 years she shared her story and in doing so gave hope and belief to her fellow sufferers of this awful disease ,
    Linnea Olson , you are one gutsy lady , you will stay very much alive on this blog as people read over again your stories .
    One more word THANKYOU

    • Kari Friedman-Meyer

      This is only the truth Linnea I have followed your blogs brave words of wisdom since my mom that was diagnosed with stage 4 Nsclc 2013. You have only made be believe that hope is possible 🙏 unfortunately my mom passed away this past February but I have still read your blogs daily hoping that you are ok, you made a difference in many peoples lives and I know you in spirits can see what we all as a group are saying about you, rest in peace Beautiful lady 👩 ❤ with my love, Kari

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