Managing

Manageable. Another word j’adore because it doesn’t over promise.

To say that something is manageable doesn’t presume that there is no challenge, but clearly states that something can be accomplished without great difficulty.

My side effects of treatment are currently highly manageable. Flipping unbelievable given the fact that not so long ago I was ready to call it quits.

Instructional, this. One of the inherent difficulties of cancer is that the cure (aspirational) is often worse than the disease. And to think that I might have stopped a treatment that is essentially keeping me stable due to mucositis and over the top depression–both of which are currently manageable.

Damn. It’s spooky, particularly given the fact that I am now two years into progression, and that two years was the ball park survival stat we initially arrived at.

Too much of successfully addressing cancer is right place, right time. Had I not gone in for a COVID-19 test and encountered a nurse who had worked with head and neck cancers, I likely would not have discovered the product that is keeping my mucous membranes almost sore free (2-amino-4-carbamoylbutanoic acid disaccharide complex). And had I not been so emphatic per my degree of depression, an additional (and highly effective) anti-depressant would not have been added to my regimen.

So yes, chance. But also–and this is the part we do have control over–relentless self advocacy.

It still sucks to be going through a pandemic while also battling a terminal illness. But it sucks way less than it did a couple of months ago, when I was ready to throw in the towel.

I am back to that magical place where I say to myself “I can do this”. And that, my friends, is the essence of hope.

Simply doable.

xo

11 responses to “Managing

  1. Amen to”doable”.

  2. RELENTLESS SELF ADVOCACY.

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  3. Good for you!! Sometimes even the smallest wins help us keep putting one foot in front of the other. Love and hugs to you!

  4. Wow. So happy to hear that you are better and that this feels doable. You continue to amaze me and your strength is something to aspire to.
    Thank you…and hugs,
    Judy

  5. Yea for you. So right about self advocacy and being in the right place at the right time,

  6. I’m just so happy for you!
    When you have cancer, there are so many moments when you think: I can’t do this anymore.
    And then little encouragers come along and the courage to fight is back.

  7. So happy to read your post this morning….manageable and doable are the essence of our survival kit 🙂

  8. This is such great news! Thank you for sharing your heart so well and freely. ♥️

  9. I have never doubted your abilities, strengths and desires to keep up the fight, and to stay on the front lines! You endlessly inspire me Linnea!👈🏽✊🏽❤️

  10. I’m so happy for you. As always, I love reading your posts, The information you share. Your energy
    ❤️

  11. You are a Mighty Woman, and such an inspiration. Lovelovelove to you.💕

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