I had my scan a week ago and Dr. Lin called me the following day with her impression–Alice followed up on Saturday.
One of the most difficult aspects of being an oncologist is trying to keep both body and hope alive for patients. Jess (Dr. Lin) and Alice both felt the the subpleural opacity in my left upper lobe was possibly less dense than previous scans–‘more aerosolized’ is the way Alice put it. Maybe whatever the heck that is (never definitely labeled cancer) is partially resolving, and therefore accounting for the improvement in my breathing. It would be nice to think so.
I did not receive the official read of the scan until today and I must say, it is lackluster; said with all due euphemism.
Keeping body and soul together is getting to be more difficult for me as well. Neither of the last two treatments would appear to be a panacea. And social isolation is sapping me of my usual reserve of joy. These times were not made for extroverts.
Now my job is to just hold it all together in what sometimes feels like impossible circumstances—if I can avoid getting COVID-19 and keep this cancer from moving from a brush fire to burn the whole goddamn house down, well then I might be around when another treatment becomes available.
My general MO is to overcome and forge ahead—if you told me I had to walk 100 miles today I would be game to try. Laying low is an entirely different animal and I’m not gonna lie, one heck of a reach for me. But I am going to do my darnedest to hang in.
|TECHNIQUE: Diagnostic CT CHEST WITH CONTRAST COMPARISON: Chest CT dating back to 1/18/2019 |
FINDINGS:Lines/tubes: None. Lungs and Airways: Status post left lower lobectomy. The central airways are patent. There are new groundglass and tree-in-bud nodules in the anterior right upper lobe for example on images 49-51. There are also multiple enlarging subsolid nodules in the right upper lobe for example image 49 nodule measures up to 8 mm compared to 5 mm prior. Multiple nodules in the left upper lobe has also increased in size and attenuation compared to recent prior, for example spiculated nodule in the right upper lobe on image 53, measuring up to 10 mm compared to 9 mm prior, image 44 nodule now measuring 4 mm compared to 2 mm prior, and subpleural nodule on image 43 measuring up to 8 mm compared to 7 mm prior. The dominant subpleural consolidative opacity along the lateral left upper lobe is essentially unchanged compared to recent prior now measuring 17 x 29 mm (image 64). The confluent consolidative opacity at the left lung base is without significant change in size compared to recent prior, measuring 77 x 20 mm (image 80). Pleura: Stable small loculated left pleural effusion with associated pleural and interlobular septal thickening. There is unchanged biapical pleural-parenchymal thickening/scarring, left greater than right. Heart and mediastinum: The thyroid gland is normal. Stable mediastinal and hilar lymph nodes measuring up to 6 mm in short axis, for example low pretracheal node on series 302 image 42 and AP node on image 46. The cardiac chambers are normal in size. There is no pericardial effusion. Soft tissues: There is no significant subpectoral or axillary lymphadenopathy. Abdomen: Please see separate CT abdomen and pelvis report of same day. Bones: There is moderate spinal degenerative changes. No suspicious lytic or blastic lesions.
IMPRESSION: Lung cancer surveillance status post left lower lobectomy: Subpleural consolidative masslike opacity along the lateral left upper lobe is unchanged compared to most recent prior but remains suspicious for primary lung malignancy. Stable small loculated pleural effusion with interlobular septal thickening consistent with lymphangitic carcinomatosis. Enlarging pulmonary nodules bilaterally since at least 7/5/2019 suspicious for progression of metastatic disease. New groundglass and tree-in-bud nodules in the anterior right upper lobe may represent inflammatory or infectious process. Attention on follow up is advised.
Marching onward, holding hands threw words.
On Tue, Mar 31, 2020 at 1:34 PM life and breath: outliving lung cancer wrote:
> linnea11 posted: ” I had my scan a week ago and Dr. Lin called me the > following day with her impression–Alice followed up on Saturday. One of > the most difficult aspects of being an oncologist is trying to keep both > body and hope alive for patients. Jess (Dr. Lin) and A” >
You are amazing. You are actually walking that 100 miles on a daily basis.
Keep writing and I will keep writing back. It sure is lonesome.
These are trying times. Stay focused. This must be managed at best. And you are doing well with that. Maybe this particular cocktail of drugs is not right for you, but there will be others to try and I’m confident you will find success.
Moving forward, even if it’s a tiny step!!✊🏼❤️
Agreed agreed: move forward and get to the other side, and then see what’s there.
“The bear went over the mountain, Linnea went over the mountain. Linnea went over the mountain… to see what she could see.” 🙂 ❤
Keep kicking, my friend. Keep kicking.