C’est moi

Freethinker: a person who thinks freely or independently : one who forms opinions on the basis of reason independently of authority especially.

I view the world from two distinct lens. Natural law (an observable law relating to natural phenomena) versus human constructs. And I really, truly only respect the former.

Although I would argue this is a sensible approach to life, I often run afoul of those entities which either hew to or consider themselves The Authority. Undoubtedly this viewpoint started early in my life, when so-called rules got in the way of whatever activity I had planned. My response to being admonished by my parents and or teachers– ‘You are not the boss of me’ was certainly uttered only under my tongue after the first few retorts resulted in a spirited spanking.

Tall, tom-boyed, gap toothed, left-handed, atheist. Non-normative comes naturally to me. Which is not to imply that I am always well received.

What is a breath of fresh air to some is a pain in the ass to others. Just ask my soon to not be landlord.

Or the pharmacist who would not refill my prescription (for a drug I have taken for fourteen years) simply because there was an error in the way it had been transcribed, with it reading both every seven hours and twice a day.

One week later I finally said to him, ‘You know, it doesn’t matter what it says on the bottle, I will take those pills as often as I want to anyway.’ Note added to chart, I would imagine.

Fortunately my oncologist is on board with logic and is a goddess of empathy. As the scrip was for ativan and I was coming off of two sleepless nights per restarting lorlatinib, I was feeling a little desperate. Saturday night I messaged her. She was out (on a date with her husband, I hope) and yet stopped what she was doing to call the pharmacy on my behalf.

That night I slept like a baby. Dreaming dreams unschooled and unkempt. Authority free.

4 responses to “C’est moi

  1. Linnea, you are one of my favorite pain in the ass free thinkers. Keep it up!

  2. Linnea, As a fellow, life-long member of the “..run afoul of authority..” club, you know I support every effort of yours to get “them” see the real reality., even when that may very well be a construct. Of course “Our” collective reality is just that, a construct, but relativity puts us all well in place! ✊🏼❤️

  3. Hooray for your integrity. Being true to ourselves is fundamental. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  4. Glad you are getting much needed rest. Gotta love your goddess oncologist! (won’t mention her by name, don’t want to get her in trouble!). She once met us at the outdoor bar at Liberty to hand off a bottle of Lorlatinib. On a Saturday night!, after negative affects from a failed trial, initiated a hastened drive to Boston from Rochester. She is truly a one of a kind. As Tina Turner would say “Simply the Best!!

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