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Our current home abuts a sizeable pond. On the other side is a two lane highway, so it is not quite paradise. But almost. I have learned to ignore the sound of the passing cars and it would seem that the animal life is also quite oblivious to traffic. Deer pass through our yard regularly and a week ago there were fresh coyote tracks. There is also a beaver den a stones throw from our property line. A twenty foot beech and two large white pines have been ‘ringed’, so that they lean precariously; a storm or two more should bring them down.
I have taken to collecting the slender saplings, snapped off at the base and stripped of bark. They litter the shore; bleached, whittled and tattooed with faint bands.
Several weeks ago, the pond covered in first ice, I finally spotted the beaver. Just in front of the den was a patch of open water, and swimming in small circles was both an adult and a juvenile. Suddenly I was witness to some extraordinary behavior. The adult ducked under the ice edging the frigid water, and then surfaced forcefully, using it’s head and shoulders to break the ice. It repeated this task several times, before both beavers disappeared beneath the surface.
The pond itself is a dynamic force, spring fed and ever changing. One of my favorite things is the appearance of water just before it freezes. Smoky and viscous; it resembles mercury.
Once the ice has set, there are sometimes great belching noises rumbling up from the pond, as pressure is released. Occasionally too, a sudden ricochet as first one and then several cracks race across the ice. I clearly remember these sounds from childhood, as there was a pond behind our house then as well.
Of course, I have taken lots of pictures. Should you like, you can click on any photo to scroll through larger versions.
I was in Boston on Monday for labwork, and just adjacent to the elevators is a wall rack where they display current issues of the MGH Cancer Center magazine. On the cover was a familiar image, a CT scan of lungs pre and post crizotinib. Although not identified, they are my lungs. So, I guess that makes me a cover girl.
While there I also paid a quick visit to my friend Sarah Broom (a poet: https://lifeandbreath.wordpress.com/2011/09/06/if-the-world/), who has traveled from her home in New Zealand to enroll in a Clinical trial at Massachusetts General Hospital. We had gotten together the previous week for lunch and on Sunday Evening she’d driven to our house in Amherst with her brother Alex, who was visiting from Australia to be with Sarah as she started trial (her husband is at home with their three young children). The meal on Sunday (local lobster) was really pleasant and Sarah’s brother is every bit as charming as she. Afterward they managed, for the most part, to stay on the right side of the road (which would be the wrong side of the road ‘down under’) on the drive back to Cambridge.
But more about Sarah and that back story. Back in August of 2008, when my oncologist (at that time, Dr. Tom Lynch) told me that as a newly identified ALK ‘mutant’ I was eligible for enrollment in the phase I trial for PF-02341066 (crizotinib), the trial was transitioning from an initial focus on gastrointestinal cancers to lung cancer. Only one other lung cancer patient had been on trial at MGH, and he had died within weeks of enrolling (his lung cancer was responding to crizotinib, but his disease was ultimately too widespread). Although this news did nothing to alleviate my fear, it also didn’t dampen my enthusiasm; possible death (trial) versus certain death (continued tarceva, chemo, or no treatment at all).
It was but a few weeks later that I became aware of Kevin Brumett, after my husband conducted an internet search for information on ALK mutations. Kevin had posted on Inspire, the online site which I soon joined and continue to participate in. I contacted Kevin, also an ALK mutant. He had been on trial at Dana Farber for some weeks and had recently gotten back his first scans, which showed significant improvement. Kevin immediately became my beacon; this courageous and incredibly optimistic young man who was just ahead of me on this path to who knew where.
I started trial on October 1, 2008 and soon thereafter Kevin told me of another fellow traveler, Sarah Broom, in New Zealand.
Unfortunately Kevin developed a large number of brain metastases early in 2006, and it was at that point that it began to be clear that crizotinib might not cross the blood/brain barrier. Several months later, Kevin died and Sarah and I fell out of touch for a time as well.
Perhaps a year and a half ago we began emailing again and eventually spoke on the phone as well. Now, in a curious turn of fate, we are in the same place once more, each enrolled in clinical trials. LDK378, which is a second generation ALK inhibitor for me, and AUY922, an HSP-90 inhibitor for Sarah. There is a good chance I will eventually go on AUY922 and she on LDK378. Talking at dinner the other evening, we figured that we are number three (Sarah) and number four (myself) in the world to have gone on crizotinib–(although I might have to share number four with another individual who went on trial either the day before or after me at MGH).
It’s all rather remarkable. Our friendship, begun in the most unlikely fashion, the distance we have each traveled (more metaphorically speaking when I refer to myself, but in Sarah’s case, coming from New Zealand, the real deal). The fact that we are both still here, trudging forward, looking for sure footing.
As for those liver enzymes; falling. SGPT is 66 and SGOT is 62. And the wine tasting party? So much fun (hosted by the same fabulous friends who made 11/11/11 special for Pete and I). Part of the evening involved a little contest; we were served pairings and asked to distinguish between labels/vintages. Well friends, my fellow contestants were all quite able, but out of a field of twelve, I tied for first after getting them all correct. My secret? Not mere luck, but rather a reliance on instinct (a superior tool in matters of the senses–but I was nonetheless surprised as well as mighty pleased by my little coup).
My prize? A lovely bottle of sauterne and liver enzymes headed in the right direction. Win win.
Slow, but steady. The results are in from my recent CT scan and 40% resolution has eased on up to 45%. A significant five percent, as the negative side effects (gastrointestinal issues) from LDK378 have increased in intensity as well. Dr. Shaw and I had spoken about possibly moving my dose back down to 400 mg if there had been no incremental improvement in tumor burden.
The Radiology Report is less cheering, although certainly is not what I would characterize as a bad report. It reads:
IMPRESSION: Persistent groundglass opacities in the anterior and inferior left lung and along the right minor fissure. The opacities in the left lung are slightly more prominent. There are no definite new lesions.
It’s all a curious algorithm; this response/non-response thing. “Tumor size has traditionally been estimated from bidimensional measurements (the product of the longest diameter and its longest perpendicular diameter for each tumor)” (quoted from an article in the Japanese Journal of Clinical Oncology) Basically, a linear measurement, which is quite dependent upon the outside diameter of a lesion, is used to estimate volume. Baseline measurements are taken at the onset of a particular treatment, and response (and/or stability or progression) is assessed by comparing successive scans to the initial chest CT. Evidently my earlier 40% (https://lifeandbreath.wordpress.com/2011/12/14/big-four-oh/) was not the cutoff for partial response but rather exceeded it. I should have done my homework. From Wikipedia:
Evaluation of target lesions
- Complete Response (CR): Disappearance of all target lesions
- Partial Response (PR): At least a 30% decrease in the sum of the LD of target lesions, taking as reference the baseline sum LD
- Stable Disease (SD): Neither sufficient shrinkage to qualify for PR nor sufficient increase to qualify for PD, taking as reference the smallest sum LD since the treatment started
- Progressive Disease (PD): At least a 20% increase in the sum of the LD of target lesions, taking as reference the smallest sum LD recorded since the treatment started or the appearance of one or more new lesion
Odd as well is the 5% increase in response coupled with the possible area of greater consolidation noted on the radiology report. Which to me illustrates the limitations of any sort of quantitative measurements; it is all seems a bit hypothetical/ best guess sort of stuff. Data collection. Bottom line, my lungs feel and sound pretty darn good.
The numbers on my labs are closer to normal as well; the oral iron supplement I began taking several weeks ago is helping.
The one concern of the moment is my liver enzymes, transaminases-SGOT and SGPT.
So what is a transaminase? From MedicineNet.com: The transaminases are enzymes that catalyze chemical reactions in the body in which an amino group is transferred from a donor molecule to a recipient molecule. (!)
SGOT is an acronym for serum glutamic oxaloacetic transaminase and SGPT for serum glutamic pyruvic transaminase. Just in case you wanted to know. What is really relevant is that they are enzymes in the liver and elevated values of either can be an indicator of liver inflammation.
My SGOT/SGPT values were ever so slightly elevated the entire time I was on crizotinib. When I went off treatment they fell to normal levels, but soon after my first dose of LDK378, the levels again became slightly elevated. After my dose went up to 500 mg, the values began to rise again. My SGOT level peaked at 84 a week ago and is now down to 67. The normal reference range for SGOT is 9-32 U/L (units per liter of serum–the liquid part of blood). My SGPT was at 79 last week and this week topped out at 102. Normal reference ranges for SGPT are 7-30 U/L.
Hopefully the SGPT has peaked and will start to go down. In the meantime, a glass of wine in the evening is not an option. Sadly, we’ve been invited to a wine tasting party this very weekend (for the oenophiles out there, all with a rating of 93 or above). When I asked Alice (Dr Shaw) if I’d be able to participate, she said, “Wine tasting is just sips of wine, right?” “Well…” I replied, “it can be done that way”. So I’ve been given clearance to slosh a bit around in my mouth. Just like the real sommeliers. I don’t believe I’ll be able to bring myself to spit it out though; that just wouldn’t be right.
I have been checking Leslie and Rob’s blog several times a day for updates. Rob’s passing was expected, but that doesn’t necessarily make it any more comprehensible.
January 5, 2011–Fair winds and following seas…
It is with a heavy heart that I let you know that Rob passed away peacefully this afternoon at home, surrounded by his family. Even the cat was on the bed.
Thank you to everyone who wrote to us with wonderful stories from your good times together. We read each and every note to him, and he was very touched (as were we all). And for all of you who also love “Desert Solitaire”, you should know that Marnie was reading it aloud to him in the minutes before he left us.
We are a little overwhelmed right now, so it would be good to hold off on calling. We will be planning a celebration of life in the not too distant future, so stay tuned.
Oh man. Such a good, good guy and a very special couple. I just know that Leslie will keep the essence of Rob close in her heart, and that he is now free to wander again, something he loved so and that cancer had taken from him.
Smooth sailing, my friend.
And now it’s our turn to hold Leslie tight.
rabbit rabbit in the dog’s ear because his wife was still sleeping. And not because she had overindulged. In fact, I’ve been up to my ears working on some proposals and all I wanted to do last night was sit mindlessly in front of the television. Something I almost never do. The Three Stooges, an episode of Star Trek, and Justin Beiber, Pitbull and Lady Gaga at Times Square. We tumbled into bed just before the fireworks started (legal in New Hampshire, so a must have at any occasion). Poor Buddy, he of the rabbit rabbit early morning incident and, sadly, epileptic, was becoming more anxious with each boom. I tossed and I turned and it was already three hours into 2012 before I finally fell asleep.
WordPress, the online platform for my blog, emailed users end of the year stats. For what it’s worth, I’m honestly not sure how accurate their algorithm, hits = views, is. However, supposedly Life and Breath was viewed about 58,000 times last year. A drop in the bucket compared to say, the number of people who subscribe to Alec Baldwin’s twitter account (wait–I just tried to verify that number, and his account has been suspended). Okay, eat your heart out, Alec!
I was most tickled by the fact that there are quite literally people all over the world checking in. An icon of what looked like a little Russian nesting doll represented areas of greatest concentration, (bigger nesting doll, more people reading the blog) but it is also broken down by region, and the stats don’t all add up to 100%. I couldn’t tell you what’s up with that, but my best guess is that they stopped after the top 5 (or 2 or 3). Anyway, it’s interesting; this snapshot of our global community:
92.9% US, 7% Canada, .1% Mexico
27.4% UK, 12% Finland, 10.2% Sweden, 8.3% Netherlands, 6.8% Belgium
46.7% South Africa, 20% Egypt, 6.7% Kenya, 6.7% Uganda, 3.3% Zambia
25.3% Japan, 14.9% Hong Kong, 14.7% India, 8.9% Phillippines, 8.3% Indonesia
63.3% Australia, 36.7% New Zealand
So, to my friends all over the world, those I’ve met and those I have not, I wish you a happy and healthy New Year.