We awakened yesterday to a sparkling day; the sun was out and after all that rain, everything seemed shiny bright and scrubbed clean. One of those days where it is so beautiful it almost hurts. It was also delightfully warm, and Buddy and I went on not one, but two walks.
Last night I slept with the windows open and for the first time this year, I heard spring peepers. This morning the lake was shrouded in mist; the surface perfectly still and silvered, so that there was an eerily perfect mirror image of the docks and trees lining the shore. When I took Buddy for his morning walk, the air was filled with birdsong and all the little strands of spider silk were outlined in mist. I really love life.
I love it so much, that sometimes I forget that I have cancer. Not in a ‘I’m not thinking about it all the time’ way (which is good and healthy), but rather in such a way that I totally disregard the fact that my life course has been irrevocably altered. And I start making crazy plans, which, truthfully, are beyond realistic.
And just as no one is going to sell me a life insurance policy (nope, didn’t get one back when I could), there are limitations to what I can realistically expect to achieve.
For instance, there is a wonderful fundraiser coming up on May 2nd sponsored by the Lung Cancer Alliance, Team Lung Love. It is the brainstorm of Julia Gaynor, and it is a half marathon/marathon in conjunction with the Cox Providence Rhode’s Race in Providence, Rhode Island. I really wanted to join the team and walk the half. In this particular instance I didn’t feel that I was limited by my lung cancer, but rather by my left ankle which is now home to eleven screws and a plate. Although I’m back to being very active, walking even a couple of miles results in some extra pain and swelling. Regretfully I acknowledged that taking on thirteen might be pushing my luck, so I had to pass.
However, several of my able bodied family members are going to be participating. First to join Team Lung Love was my amazing sister Laura, who, if her hamstring allows it, will run the marathon. Laura’s a real go getter, as well as an incredibly supportive sister, and so far she’s raised the most money of anyone on the team. She will be joined by her friend Stacy, who is running in honor of an uncle who lost his life to lung cancer.
In addition, My sweet husband David and son Peter will be walking the half, and they have almost achieved their fundraising goal as well and are now looking to top it.
So I encourage any of you who are able, to join us in Providence on May 2nd. I will be cheering on my incredible family and the other team members who are going the extra miles to raise awareness and funding in support of lung cancer. I hope to cover part of that distance with them.
I wish for you the ability to make as many “unrealistic” plans that you can in one life time and to fulfill them all!
As far as not being able to accomplish as many as you’d like, by sharing your experiences, you have already done more than you could ever imagine. You’ve given the gift of hope.
Thank you for that and for posting the photos. They’re amazing and so are you!
Thanks so much Tracy, I like knowing you’re out there reading along. Linnea
Hi! thank you so much for being inspirational to me. As long that I know or hear somebody who has the same fate like me, I feel much stronger than I am.
Crispin, it took me a long time to meet other lung cancer patients, but once I did, I felt empowered. Lung cancer can be a very isolating diagnosis. Anyway, thank you for your kind words, and know that it helps me as well when people such as yourself take the time to comment. Linnea
I love that photo of Laura… and Hale’s face in it 🙂
I’m so excited to see everyone in the race!
❤ you tons
Jem, so glad you’ll be there. Love, Mum